I thought losing my Mother would be a natural process, we all go through it, and I would handle it just as everyone before me has, but life doesn't always come at you like you expect. You see I miss my mother more than I can put into words. If only I had one more day, hour, minute to hold her and tell her how desperatly I miss her. I have only a beloved Aunt to share my many memories of Mom and our past, you see I am the oldest child by 7 years. If you are reading this and you too have a mother that you care for, don't wait untill she is gone to realize how much you needed her. Sometimes our mother's give us many more gifts than we ever realized untill they are gone. They share some of our deepest secrets, and fondest memories that only she will ever understand. So if you are somewhere Mom where you can hear me, I love you so very much and will miss you each and every day. I hope all the pain is gone and you are finally free. All my love, Christeena (with two e's, and no i)